The Pros & Cons

You could never hold back the truth even if you drown it with alcohol.

The truth is, being a human being can have its ups & its downs. Most of the time the missing essentials can create this missing piece of ups in our lives.

Love lost, love found: its the matter of learning from the mistakes we make & the challenges we face.

Tip: Just as your creeping through success, you learn that its not that hard if you just Nike!  I mean ...DO IT!
Remember when walking was hard, now look your a pro.. Go YOU!

Having a hard time staying with one person, spend some more time alone or with friends doing things they do with outside friends.& analyze what you want to do & the things you dont want to do. Therefor you know whats the difference between value & internal.

Cant decide what is in life you want to persue? Well, maybe your just searching and not looking at all ..take a good look around you & admire life...now go live in the moment, but while your there build & take notes.

There is pros & cons in everything we do, but just live simple & build big with strength only your mind can detect.

Xoxo LadyFluer.

Understanding.

Just until you realize love you miss out on the things that make you most happy.
Haven't you realized how much work you put into while in a relationship?
arguing, sharing, talking, understanding, compromising. a lot isn't it? I mean for one person with two hands and feet..

  ...not only that, but were all built with different traits and mating with each other means having the patience to deal with someone that you made and bring all of those abilities to teach, grow and learn.

 What is your purpose of breaking someone into your life style and getting someone comfortable just to knock them down?

We're here to feed and build , but not to build nonsense but knowledge... maybe the french people misunderstood that one.

  What is it to please and admire, all complimentary but yet so misleading. I couldn't remember the last time someone was honest with me before I gave them an integration.

Sometimes things are what you make them, and the statement stands that simple.


<3 Lady Reb'l

The Rookie , the actor, the player and the Leader.

Thinking I could form a clique of people with the same interest wanting to build something so great I failed at forming a beautiful structure and built a  love triangle.

The rookie is awesome she down to try something new and she honest about everything she feels but she comes into the loop quiet late but she's updated on all the drama.

The actor started off as a cool guy, and focused until he gave into temptation and left his pride aside, or did he? he's awesome and understanding. He's all about FUN FUN FUN ! until catches unreal feelings... or could it have been the interference of the player?

The player is funny , witty and friendly... too friendly . So friendly he hits on every girl in the class and rottens a heart for another. 

Lesson Learned keep everyone just at a friend level.

The Leader is not good at leading cliques.

As Time Passed.

As time passed , I found myself in situations that would only be a exaggerated story line in a teen flick.
Damn, could this be what iVE BEEN raving about, what about the truth?

I discontinued my marriage with the love of my life for many reason, but one reason for certain...control.
 I lost control of my emotions and Ive been trying to dig deep within to foreshadow this ego of mine and tell her to live in a different time so I can live mine.

through time I managed to share my body and broken emotions with someone that was as broken as I was. I had my eyes on him from the day he held the door for me. Could it be I got carried away with a title "single" and forgot the love I had fought for. Was it worth loosing my sense of self? Was it me all along?

FUN  had become my new motto, simple yet complex. Going from one end to the other makes it hard to watch whats been in my right zone.

I failed at being committed once again making me question what it is that Im really trying to hold on to or what it is i am trying to let go. I guess we can't always have what we want which is why we go through lessons to defeat the problems in the future. I can't lie the new felt so great to be adventurous but I seen myself hurting so many people I couldn't bear with my ego cause she always left me to deal with the pain of others.
As time passed I realized I was given new days to change and progress.

Regretful

I can hold you at a distance and still feel your pain.
I cry into your arms and suddenly I realize my happiness was destined to be failure if you were to be gone away from the touch of my skin, the sound of my voice and the untouchable feeling of life i breathe into you.
 I have given you everything and nothing to prove that I did besides the pain in my eyes, the fear in my feet and the high sound waves through my follicle.

I scream for the freedom I once had, I beg for mercy of which I once held and I cry out for the love I always push away.
 I may not know what I want but I know what I dont want ..the creases in your head.. the lies on your lips, the tears on your cheek and thoughts of a jealous lion ..I run from love but I tripped over it when I thought it was more than what our bubble can fit.
  I regret you loving me because I regret hurting you .
I regret holding your hand cause when you would move in closer my hands would grab a brick and begin to build as you begin to believe the wall was around us it was really in-front of you and behind me.

I don't know what we are suppose to do or even be, but when its not you then everything else fades away into the darkness and I become something else.

I regret turning my head because you were an ache I could not medicate. I regret sharing your kisses as if It was a bullet in my lungs if it was love i missed it. I regret sharing a feeling unknown with someone unknown ..but i admit the new feeling is amazing but not as touching as your distance... I swear im living in the resistance.

I regret saying words I couldnt mean when doors were behind me and the streets defined me.
I regret playing my way into a game without a rating now im above a level I could never learn to stay in ..so I move up -1 and fall down -13 in miles away from what we will never see.

Hold the memories and never forget me, cause change made me this way but my future is shaped so curve like I fall inbetween the cracks of the regret system..

I just gotta get this poison out of my system.

-Lady.

Friends.

Why is it such a big deal that I have guy-friend, whats up with the jealousy trait ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ LAY OFF !

The worst thing you can do to a girl is be on her back like your her dad. Don't get me wrong us girls like to know that your not passing them up , but when you start to suspect that every guy I make a friend is some type of dude that wants more...my next question is , do you trust me ?

So guys aren't the only one with jealousy issues , oh well your the topic of the day so deal with it !
 Maybe I don't want to be committed anymore or maybe I don't want to be settled down anymore. There are a lot of things I haven't gotten the chance to see and do , but with him SOMETIMES  I feel like I don't need to.

Isn't it creepy when he goes through your phone & starts to bring up conversations with your friends; I'm usually stuck on stupid like how did you know about that. Going through your BF/ GF phone is a sign of trust. If trust isn't there my advice is to move on.

Falling out Of Love

 Have you ever felt as if you had a fairy tale with someone but can't quite put your name on it , well I am in exactly that situation. Each and every day I realize that my love for him is fading && I can't quite tell him because I myself is so complex. It would hurt me to be dumped by him because , well its been so long. I guess time in a relationship is a trophy not the prize. What is the purpose or the prize in a relationship? Why can't we just have fun instead of being so serious? Am I even ready for a relationship ? What about all the things we shared with each-other?  What about our moments?




Space is very important in a relationship. If you see the person your with 24/7 then I guess you'll never feel the same. I suppose that's what happens when your young & experienced. Love dies young.