Meditation, Privacy &&. Space.

How often do you spend time alone away from the world ? Well, I spend time almost every other day trying to place my thoughts in order, alphabetical order that is. Insane much ? Yea well that's just me and I am not ashamed to say that I am not lonely when alone.

    I love to be in my room by myself , helps me think better. As long as I have pen , paper, music and a mirror to reflect I may come out like an angel.

<3. I love having my own room because privacy is very important to me as well. Being able to have "stuff" and allowing my room to be my painting board where I just splash my inner self in is more than a blessing. In a simpler form of expression, whatever I have in my room is a reflection of who and what I am about. For example, my magazines are my way of going through fashion, make-up and other peoples art- my Marilyn Monroe four framed picture on my wall shows my love for old movies. Then, I have my mickey mouse name tag over my closet( my middle name is creatively painted on a blank space which is surrounded by mickey and minnies love).

=) Space, *sigh* when in a relationship I require lots of space from the other person, too much of someone creeps me out and makes me very uncomfortable. With space I am able to have my time alone and if I don't have my time alone my thoughts and emotions will bundle up into one (THAT IS NOT GOOD).

Do you ever feel like you have a hard time expressing yourself.. well that's because you don't have time for meditiation, privacy or even space.

Jealousy.

I can not lie or else I would be just like the rest when they're at their best ;).
    Do you know the commercials that always advertise how to handle relationships ? Yea, me either.
What I do know is that we can go back and forth for hours about which gender is more jealous, but we would absolutely get nowhere.

 Here's the thing, we all can be VERY jealous at times, it just depends on the person as well as the situation.
         In relationships things can get very heated; when your guy looks at another girl ass or your girl holds a LONG conversation with a guy of her "interest" you ( whomever you are lol ) can get real furious and end up having an argument about the misunderstanding.

Well, those are all the possible reactions to actions. If you tell your girlfriend or boyfriend what your interest are in woman or men on a physical note then hey ! now every time she/he sees a someone that looks to their interest they'll going to be nagging about where your eyes are landing.

             TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS ... JEALOUSY GOES A LONG WAY ... ALL THE WAY TO DOUBLE STANDARD !

TIP: DO NOT TELL YOUR BF/GF WHAT TO DO UNLESS THEY LIKE TO BE CONTROLLED.
        DO NOT TELL YOUR BF/GF OF TWO WEEKS EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU .
        DO NOT GO THROUGH YOUR SPOUSE CELLULAR PHONE, FB, BLOG, OR PERSONAL GADGETS WITHOUT PERMISSION.
         DO NOT ASSUME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In this generation things like BESTIE, BROTHER, SISTER, AND THE ORIGINAL "FRIEND" HAS CAUSED ASSUMPTION TO CHEATING.

I mean can you blame these people for assuming... the only problem with this situation is that half of these people lie the other half just have a genuine relationship.

*** TIP: DO NOT MISLEAD SOMEONE , THAT WASTE TIME.. IF YOUR GOING TO DO SO BE STRAIGHT UP SO THAT THEIR IS NO REGRETS NOR HATRED BEHIND IT .



When you say no strings attached you mean : PLEASE CUFF ME... IF NOT NOW THEN LATER.

JEALOUSY , SHES BAD BUT IF SHE WERE MINE .. I would one night her for all the right reasons.

Before you tell your "other half" what ticks you off try looking into the mirror for a little reflection, don't forget to check yourself.

<3 LadyFluer<3 Power is knowledge for knowledge is the success untouched to survive power.

The Guy I always knew but never met .

He was mysterious yet I knew how he was and I guess that's why it was so easy for him to open up to me in the long run. Man, I bet if I asked him to tutor me back then he would and we would be dating right now. But he had an image and well I didn't. I always maintained my reputation as Lady and a chill laid back person, but deep down inside I'm wild & adventurous  & conservative all at the same time. I liked how he cursed and it didn't sound like the guy everyone made him out to be or should I say he pretended to be.
        It was a TRIP how he suddenly allowed sparks fly between us something I been forcing and making a Joke for 3 yrs now he decides to take interest? In a way I was hurt and disappointed in myself. I am happily married and unhappily dissatisfied with the relations between my husband & I, we were falling apart and there I was allowing my confusion to make ties with lust, curiosity and temptation.

I did the right thing of course , I put LadyReb'l to sleep and told her I can guide myself through hard times. I know that I am a memory that will only be a burden when my face reappears unexpectedly.
                                      <3. XoXo Lady .

What does it mean to be commited & DO WE HAVE TOOOO ?

I DON'T LIKE BEING COMMITTED IT SCARES ME , BUT AT THE SAME TIME I LIKE TO BE STABLE & SURE.



               WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK ABOUT BEING COMMITTED ?

The Best Friend .

How far have you gone to just please some one ? I have gone nowhere but to the edge of my soul . Sometimes it feels as though I misunderstood by the skin of my teeth cause no one hears me when I speak, not even the ears of the silent people in the G building. What worries me the most is what I would do just to be noticed by the one person who is suppose to be with me till death do us part. That person will never be satisfied.


Have you ever brought up your past with your spouse and then laughed at your past relationships? Did you ever try to compare yourself to their first, even though your who their with now?

I try to stop myself from feeling unworthy or not beautiful because I don't feel as beautiful as the one he once had hard feelings for. Sounds stupid huh ? Yeah, cause I am trying to be better than that... insecurity is unhealthy & selfish.
My best friend will always be my best friend but for him she will always be the girl he never held on to.

                    But How can I ever amount to my BF type ? Im beautiful but if he could have her he would be Happier with her...Is that stupid to say ?

That Guy .

I don't remember the last time I got that feeling , you know the akward but so intense ( the good intense) feeling.
Doing something you was not suppose but it felt so right. Being that I always tried to live by the rules, I kind did things that was against the rules, only if I truly wanted to.. I mean it had to have Just that Feeling and he had to be just That Guy.

I love my boyfriend with all my heart, because that is exactly who he is ... my boy-friend ! I mean he's more than just my friend but we enjoy each-others company. However, there will always be that one person that came and went in your life. I mean you would never think to be more with them but they had that THING you can't explain.

Being young on a School Friday night hanging out with your older cousins , there is always something scandalous that is bound to happen. When you meet are a virgin to everything you usually get excited and nervous about what you might say to that person. I'm the type of person who doesn't like things to get old and boring therefore being optimistic and outgoing.


<3 . There is nothing like new, as long as you can always cherish the old.

Something About it ...

There is something about clothes and trends that just catches my eyes . I'm all about simplicity and standing out ! I don't like to me all out there but when you look at me you think " hmm she is so mysterious yet so expressive."

I use to think that expressing yourself was being your self .. do we really need different frabric and colors to bloom > then I feel inlove with Mary Kate and ashley's sheek yet "Independent" look . I love to look sophisticated, but still screams romance =0 .

I ABSOLUTELY GIVE RESPECT TO DESIGNERS AND THE CREATORS OF TRENDS AS WELL AS GIVING PEOPLE THE DESIRE FOR MORE .. IDK WHAT IM SAYING ... I JUST FEEL LIKE EXPLORING AND SHOPPING !! THEN DRESSING UP EVERY DAY TO TAKE A PIC SO I CAN SEE MYSELF AS THIS ICON =) , I admire fashion as much as I admire myself .

My First Job In Retail Experience

Okay so I don't really have that Look Yet , but I do have a great sense of fashion. I can put an outfit together and make it look like a trend =). Finally, All these months looking for a Job I finally have one ! A REAL ONE.

There is no experience like your first job doing something you love =) <3 .

Her ,

She doesnt know it but I will never show it .
Confusion spreads like a healthy disease unhealthy because of she.
I can't kill my curiosity because she lies within the ...the idea of being something that the world is becoming but something that my loved ones will exchange me in for.


She doesn't know it but my crush is deep within the ... I would click the search button but I dont know the keyword. One day she'll make the move & I'll accept.. But she will always be a the thought I could never think through.
   

Friendship

What does it mean anymore ?

  My understanding of friendship is support and loyalty. The more the person embraces their individualism ( if thats a word) the more I am able to be comfortable with myself and with the person.
               How do people consider a person they barely know a friend?
I can't stand it when I call someone a friend but I don't even know them well enough to say so. I mean it can be said when your just using it to subtitle something. EX. Just met this girl who is a friend of friend and now im introducing her as my friend . *I really mean "Associate" lol .

TIP: Be careful about who you would call a friend.

SOUND WAVES.

What is this music turning into? EWWL ! IF YOUR A WOKA FLOKA FAN FOR HIS LYRICS ! GO TO SLEEP ! IF YOUR A GUCCI FAN FOR HIS LYRICS GO LAY DOWN ! IF YOUR A RACKS ON RACKS FAN ( I DONT EVEN KNOW HIS NAME ) GO TO CANADA .IM NOT JUDGING TO BE RUDE OR INSULTING BUT WTF ! WHAT HAPPENED TO RAPPERS LIKE RAHKIM, JADAKISS, EMINEM, TUPAC.

  I mean I know everyone expresses themselves differently, but when music was something to relate to and to enjoy while partying or meditating it was good .

JUST HOW I FEEL.

Been there Done that ,,, NO repeats !

Okay, when was the last time you said " Been there done that " ? I said it the other night when my Bf and I got into a small disagreement. Okay ! it wasn't small, but I have realized that I had this argument before in a previous relationship and the results wasn't so good, I mean where is the dude now ? ( NO ! REALLY WHERE IS HE?)

       A  guy-friend of mine said to me on FB that he dated several girls and they all did him DIRRRTYYY ! & every single last one of them had the excuses of "I been hurt before". Just because he's my guy friend doesn't mean I'm going to take up for him, how many times does guys break girls heart without any remorse.However, he is definitely a sweetheart looking for the Titanic love, unfortunately THOSE GIRLS CAN KISS BUTT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! \

STOP ACCUSING YOUR PRESENT BECAUSE OF YOUR PAST ! JUST CAUSE YOU BEEN THERE AND DONE THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN REPEAT ! =)

Defining Self .

It doesn't hurt me when people call me names or say insulting things about me, not even someone that I would consider close to me. What hurts is that I'm the target when they may feel insecure, as if I have Low-self esteem written on my forehead. I mean I am not perfect, I have several flaws but the older I get the more I embrace and flaunt them. I am a girl who would do something outrageous on a normal day, only when I'm feel unusual.
                A common question amongst millions is "How come I can't be self confident like him/her?" . Well, here is the answer: No one really has 100 in self confidence but they do cover them well , just learn how to embrace it. Don't belittle someone else just be better for you .


Sometimes to find yourself you must loose yourself.

Double Standard Vs. The Truth

HEY ! What do you think about Double standards? What is the truth of it all ? Can it be equal for Men and Woman ? Overtime it becomes a little petty but it is an issue.

   Like why is it okay for men to desire a Minaj with two girls but when a girl wants two guys it becomes a crime.
                       Like why is it okay for a guy to do something and soooo WRONG for a female ?


I JUST DONT LIKE IT , I DONT LIKE IT AT ALL !

Here are a couple of photos of me ...I've been thinking about getting into the fashion business.

SHOUT OUT TO THOSEGIRLSAREWILD =)

I  am one of the most creative people you'll meet, if you meet me on a great day ! After listening to their opinions and their topics really changed my outlook on a lot of things. Yeah! I know how cheesy this may sound, but isn't that their purpose---Giving people advice and showing them a different route to success and self improvement inspired me to be a better LADY ;).

So what that said SHOUT OUT TO THE LADIES WHO ARE WILD ! LOL

Love from a distance.

Hey, I've been doing some thinking, why is it that we just cant be happy with our Man? ( When I say "We" of course I mean you guys). I've been dating my Jr.high school boyfriend for 2yrs since the last time we dated and well we have had our ups and downs. For Two years we only seen each-other 3 times( 2 summers and spring break) and it was a lot going on in our lives but we stuck through it all. Love is undefined right ? But for some reason him and I  just believe there has been a meaning all along and a way to keep relationships together. The less you see a person the more you have to talk about.


 So you see , just give each other space every now and then.  I mean there is no way you can be "perfect" but there is a way to balance your relationship as well as your life.

When Happy .

What do you say when life throws tissue when your happy?

The love he never heard.

A story like no other -  it starts, Once upon a tree. (Okay, so its a love story gone wrong of course and maybe just maybe a lost soul can find a vessel that attracts this undefined thing called love.) Can a man forgive love for not informing him about the mishaps that may come his way? Can love have been personified and mislead to help others when truth is its suppose to destroy mankind so that they will rebuild themselves?. A man named Wilsh never knew of love; maybe the thought and the sound, but never the feeling. A story isn't a story without characters, but in Wilsh case this is not a story (Wilsh barely has character). A tree is where he found the truth but will love be there after his journey to find everything but that ? .

I decided to write a short story for my Blog called "SILENT LOVE FOR WILSH". SUBTITLE: THE TREE OF FAITH.

Never Ending .

I began to realize no matter what goes wrong in your life you must continue on and make the best of it. After realizing this I contradicted myself by saying ... "I can't". Sometimes things become unbearable, but that's all in our minds. The way we live can be dangerous to ourselves as well as to those around us. What does it mean to HELP? Does it mean just to assist or to take the controlling hand in a situation ? I become frightened when I begin to think about ending life unheard . NEVER ENDING - When the end is only the beginning, your beginning will never end .