The Wig.

 Sometimes hair can be the way a woman feels about herself in that particular moment in time.
A lot of times people frown at women with extensions or wigs, why?
  Is it because their flaws say their imperfect? Why does it matter how long your hair is ?


I would be lying if I said I never wore a wig, or a extensions. I recently started to wear wigs, I don't know why, but I seen it as, I don't have to do my hair anymore, it can be already done and BOOM! ready to go. However, I wear half wigs ! but now I'm wearing lace FRONTS! ewl ! I hate em, I think people with no edges benefit from it more.

Am I blind or do they want me that way?

I remember the days when I did not care for Love the way love had proposed itself to me.
Dedicated it claimed, skeptical I became, and yet sparks fly at the end of my tears.
Then, love told me have no fear.
I don't fit into this life.. and whenever I try to create my own, I feel as if my heart has been deserted and I have been left alone.

Complex I seem to be in his eyes
Although, he begs to differ, I read into his lies.

Why is it that I can not see my own beauty when someone holds up a mirror image of their compliments?
Why is it someones sincerity frightens me?
Why does it seem like I am giving up on love when love has failed to comprehend me?

I switched lanes hoping I could ride smoothly being the confident me that I desire to be,
Then I realized lanes are parallel so there is no difference direction, just difference in position.

I guess I yern for real recognition.
I recognize I am alive.
See the flaws that I hide
Laugh with me not at me..
be the your best when you are with me...

Instead your head swells up trying to figure me out
Instead your love runs dry when I do not run on your time
Instead you point the finger low-key towards me and then take it back..

You say I don't know what I want yet, you want to be with me...How is it you want to be with someone who does not know what they want?

I guess we reflect one another, and we cant help but desire to be near ourselves.

Am I blind, I believe you were trying to slip out of my love for the many reasons you said you had no feelings about..

"It is in the past" yet I can see our future by looking back..how is that?

Do you want me to be blind, close my eyes and act like there is no pain inside?
Do you want me to be blind, like the way you look at those girls don't make you wonder inside?
Do you want me to be blind, like I had to ask you for respect by not looking away when you claim im the treasure you want to save ?

Am I the blame? Or are you ashamed?

Am I blind because I do not see the love you have for me... reacting under the pressure.. claim to move slow and respect my wishes yet you granting wishes of your own...If I sink then you pull the white flag and never return, am I wrong for letting you go every time I realize this love has no home.

Am I blind?

You said you care about me and flirt and things but then separate ya self from me as If you made the wrong decision by even mentioning it to me.

Do you want me to be blind, like I don't see you distancing yourself from me?
Do you want me to be blind like  I don't see your hate for me?

I tried to be the person they wanted, then I did it for me... I warned out by LOVE and Trust swinging me this way and that way just to tell me I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH.